I had an epiphany.
And maybe it’s something everyone else has always known, but for me this is a big deal. Because it completely changes how I see my life. Completely.
It was one of those days again, the kind where you are crying uncle by lunch time. I felt like the waters were up around me so high, they were just about to crash down on top of me and drown me. Yep, I was overwhelmed and felt like I couldn’t catch my breath.
I reached out to a few friends and asked them to pray.
I have to pause here and just tell you - this reaching out was a big deal for me. It’s really hard for me to do that sort of thing, and sometimes I would rather just not talk to anyone when I’m in the drowning zone. This pulling back, the putting on of the metaphorical mask – I’ve always been like that. The mask is that “nothing’s super great but nothing’s super bad so just don’t mind me. I don’t deserve a minute of your time, in fact I’m ashamed that I’m even having a problem” kind of mask. This is also called low self- worth, and ladies if you do this, I understand. I do. I have taken 2013 to be intentional in healing those things that lie to me and say I’m not enough. I am enough, I’m worth someone’s time. And you are too.
But back to my story.