Everything I might write has been deleted over and over.
Either from the screen or from my brain.
I can’t seem to write something that isn’t dark and twisty.
Do you ever get like that?
I am at a place in my life when I’m about to have a birthday
and I’m excited about it (I like getting older)
but I’m fighting a giant sense of caring too much about things out of my control.
I seriously can’t keep my spirits up.
I want to burn everything to the ground and start all over
and jump into a pool of Perspective and drown in it
so I finally learn what it means
to keep it.