So often when I have a bad week, I’m able to shrug it off as yet another learning experience. I normally can just dust myself off and move on, seeing things big picture usually reminds me that the minutia of life really does not matter.
This past week was such a rough one, and such a roller coaster, that I still don’t know which end is up or what to make of it. I’m happy to have my blog as a place to go to express myself, where you my readers can feel less alone in your own struggles in life, and where I find so much support from you as a community that it’s humbling.
I’ve been avoiding posting this past week because every post that would’ve come out of my head would have been depressing. However I started to get emails from you all, asking me if all is well, and I remember that this blog is exactly where I can go to get those things out, to work through those trials and tribulations. This is and always will be that safe place. My own expression of me, for better or for worse.
Many things are going on behind the scenes, new opportunities, new partnerships, it’s all very exciting. I have much to share with you in the coming weeks, but today I’m reflecting on my own shield of strength, and how it can seem so strong on the outside, yet feel so weak at the same time. Many people tell me I’m strong, but I don’t feel it most days. I feel weak and vulnerable, especially when little things or others’ opinions of me and my work bring me down and make me question myself. Even if I know I’m on my best path, being my best self, I am still human and still a very emotional person that wears my heart on my blog.
Thank you again for all your support, it means the world to me. My strength has been replenished, the cracks have been filled in with love, and the foundation is no longer crumbling. My own implosion has been held off yet again by those who lift me up, and I’m ready to keep soldiering on, one foot in front of the other.
What do you do in your lower moments to feel better? Do you share with a few select friends, blog it only, or simply keep quiet? I’d love to hear from you…