Last night I read this post by Technosailor, that talked about playing to your strengths and having confidence in who you are. That confidence draws people to you…that it gets people lost in you.
As I reflected on this idea, I realized that I generally feel confident in my abilities. This is huge for me, because it has not always been that way. Feeling confident in myself just feels right. As if there isn’t any other way to feel.
Sure, I am not always confident that my writing is good, because while it seems interesting to me, it also seems too fluffy and floaty compared to the cynical bloggers I read so often. I do have an edge to me in real life. Sarcasm is fun and I have a quirky wit that not everyone “gets”, but my heart is poetic and just as fluffy as can be. And most of my writing reflects that side of me.
I have to wonder if all artists question their work. Is it just me?
At the same time, I know that it makes me feel good to have a place I can put my heart out there for you all. To consume or to love, whichever you choose. Either way is fine, because I put it out there and leave it there.
I feel as though turning 30 was a big milestone in this journey of bravery and loving who I am and who God made me to be. The confidence increases daily, and knowing that I have special gifts excites me that I can use those skills and passions and run with them. What does the future hold? I’m not sure, but I know that every day brings something new and challenging and thrilling. And that’s something to get lost in.