I have felt all week as though my head might not be completely attached to my body. Something is amiss, but I can’t really explain it or even write about it. Have you ever had some incredibly intense feelings going on inside your heart and head, and been unable to place a finger on what they are or what they mean?
This much I know: I am discombobulated.
dis·com·bob·u·late [dis-kuhm bob-yuh-leyt] to confuse or disconcert; upset; frustrate; to throw into a state of confusion
Yep, that’s pretty much it.
I have some life circumstances that may “explain” my mental state, but most of them are not new, so I don’t have that shock of “oh noes!” that happens to your system when something bad happens. And even those things, things that I may have not planned for my life, are things that I’ve accepted and haven’t had any recent freak-outs about.
So what is it?
I’m an intuitive person, and I live and die by my spidey sense. I can’t tell if I’m out of sorts because something bad is ahead, or just some big change in on the way, or what. I feel like my whole body is literally hurting, and I don’t know how to fix it.
Dread. I hate that feeling.
I know that no matter what happens, we will be fine, God is in control. I honestly do not doubt that. But that’s my logical brain, and my non-logical brain (i.e. 95% of it) is not peaceful at all right now.
What do you do when you have a dark cloud looming, and don’t know why? Or even if you do know why, how do you cope? Do you ignore it in hopes it goes away, do you go get a massage, or do you blog about it and be done with it?